Promo spot for next week's ABC 'In the Spotlight' interview

http://blogs.abcnews.com/pressroom/2009/11/an-abc-news-exclusive-janet-jackson.html

More updates on http://launch.groups.yahoo.com/group/theoneandonlymissjanet/

Backgroundsinger Tribute Song for MJ

Judith Hill, backgroundsinger for This Is It and duet partner for "I just can't stop loving you", pays tribute in her song "I Will Always Be Missing You"

Very beautiful song, very sad and touching... thank you Judith

Taj tweets about Michael

So sweet, so sad and mostly so true!


One of the most important lessons I learned from my uncle Michael... "True"
Charity
about 4 hours ago from Twitterrific

He taught us(my brothers & I) at a young age that it's not "True" charity if you
announce it to everyone saying "hey look what I did".
about 4 hours ago from Twitterrific

"True" charity is when you do something for someone or give money or time to
something and nobody else knows you did it.
about 4 hours ago from Twitterrific

That was one of the 1st things our uncle reminded us about when we started
having success with 3T. Be charitable and give back.
about 4 hours ago from Twitterrific

Use your success and fame for good. Visit children hospitals. Give yourself to
the less fortunate. Make your music count for something.
about 4 hours ago from Twitterrific

My uncle was truly amazing. Not only did he do all of these things and more. We
learned best by his example.
about 3 hours ago from Twitterrific

There will NEVER be a purer soul than my uncle Michael. People put him through
hell here on earth, but now he is finally free in heaven.
about 3 hours ago from Twitterrific

I miss him so much.
about 3 hours ago from Twitterrific

http://twitter.com/taj

It starts with us!

This Is It - MJ's 'New' Song

Of course it's an old song sold as new by Sony.
Of course it doesn't really fit to MJ's upcoming movie except the lyrics 'This Is Is'
Of course... well, not of course, rather unfortunately it's just a demo (I still wonder where the finished version is...? Never heard a demo on the radio before)

But besides that, it's a wonderful song which stuck in my mind. We should stop nagging and just enjoy an old 'new' song.

I'm having it on repeat and ......

I never heard a single word about you, Falling in love wasn't my plan, I never thought that I would be your lover........... this is it

<3
L.O.V.E.

THIS IS IT (Snippet) + Lyrics

Just uploaded a little clip on my "JacksonLoverForEver" account plus the Lyrics so far!

I LOVE IT!

Jackson Kids Take on Canine Crusade

Posted Oct 10th 2009 3:25PM by TMZ Staff

Here's a tug on the heartstrings: Michael Jackson's kids saw a sad, two-legged puppy on the news ... and now they're trying to raise money to buy it new mechanical legs.

According to sources close to the family, Jackson's oldest son Prince and daughter Paris saw the dog -- a puppy named Scooby-Roo -- on the news recently -- and were so moved they decided to help raise the $2,000 necessary to buy it a custom-made cart to help it walk.

We don't know how close they are to their goal -- but seeing as they're the most famous kids on the planet, we're guessing it won't take them too long to reach it.


http://www.tmz.com/2009/10/10/jackson-kids-take-on-canine-crusade-two-legged-dog-paris-michael-jr-blanket/


It's so touching. I'm so proud of Michael, his education and his children. I love them <3 !

Statement of Janet's web team about fake accounts

"After Michael died, many fake accounts were created for Prince, Paris and Blanket on Facebook. This is seen as identity theft, and legal action may be taken by the Jackson family (Janet's web team)"

I absoletly agree. Something has to be done. All these fakes on facebook as well as on twitter are disgusting and disrespectful.

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100000176654907&v=feed&story_fbid=147338133873

This Is NOT It

"The Industry wanted MJ Live, We Wanted MJ ALIVE. NOW We want the TRUTH!"

This Is NOT It - Please support this campaign to reveal the truth.
Join the Facebook group:
http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#/ThisIsItStatement

L.O.V.E. - My Ticket Just Arrived

Not a surprise - it's the comic one, just like everyone's.

Yesterday I complained on a german MJ forum about what Ticketmaster could mean with the ticket would arrive in weeks "or so". I thought a discreet hint for "months".

But something told me today to stay at home and guess what arrived 16 o'clock with FedEX?

My Ticket for my first concert in London - one out of six concerts.

It's All For Love - L.O.V.E.

Get Rid Of U

I don't want to have a negative issue as first blog, so I'm posting a new one :)

I'm a big Michael Jackson Fan, I love Janet Jackson - but I'm not the Funkey Jacksonlover without any reason ;)

Love the other Jacksons as well :) And because I do, I'm happy to support them :)

Just heard Genevieve's new song "Get Rid Of U" and I really like it.
Here it is

Time to heal/ Links/ Janet's new single "Make Me"

Everytime I'm at home thoughts for a new blog come up, things I want to talk about - but everytime I'm online I forgot what to say - you have to know that I don't have internet at home.

Anyway... A few days ago I read a comment which I thought was kind of... stupid.
Something like: It's already been 3 months, we shouldn't mourn anymore.

HELLO?? Some people just need longer. To speak for myself: I need a freakin long time. I pull myself together, I really give it a try. I really have to admit, I fell into a deep dark hole. But I know I'm not alone - and some people just needed a short time - I don't know!
I needed to say that! Gosh! Some people are just like - rrrghhh - they make me wanna SCREAM!

BTW, some advertising for myself
I created a Yahoo Group a looong time ago, if you like, you can join :)
http://launch.groups.yahoo.com/group/michaeljacksonforever/

And Facebook
http://de-de.facebook.com/funkeygurl

Just read Janet's new tweet, actually from her web team

"Janet's New Single "Make Me" is Now Available on iTunes & Amazon! (From Janet's web team) http://bit.ly/2ca4HB"

I didn't know "Make ME" is her new single! I thought it was jus a 'gift'. Does that mean there will be a new video? I don't expect one - but it would make my heart smile.

MTV VMA 2009

I actually wanted to write something about it yesterday, but didn't find the time and nerve.

It was amazing as well as very emotional.

Madonna's speech was touching, it was amazing and from the heart. I'm thankful for it and for the story she offered us. I just wish everyone would hear her speech and I wish it would have been more in the news instead of that ass Kanye West!

The tribute. OMG! It was awesome! It could have been longer, but I'm happy with it. The costumes, the passion of the dancers. It was awesome and didn't allow time for grief.

Miss Jackson! Janet was great as always - and even beyond that. I never heard her voice like that (and I'm a fan of her since '97) and you could hear her pain in it. It gives me goose bumps. When she looked above int the end, she made me cry and her face in general in the end was sayin "You got it?? No one of you deserved Michael and no one will ever come as close". Gosh Janet, I love you!



The trailer! There were scenes in it which left me like "woooooooah". It would have been awesome, the movie is going to be awesome! But others thoughts weren't deniable! I wish I could press them away, but they were there. "He is not here with us anymore" - it's breakin my heart. Michael I love you so much!

Some thoughts...

Yesterday I broke down again... Why is it so hard to understand and to accept? *sigh*
Sometimes I wish I could be like the people who write RIP so easily.. it sounds like saying goodbye to me (or something like that). I don't want to say that. I don't even want him to be gone *sigh*
Difficult emotions and thoughts...

Yesterday I also talked with some younger fans while I was promoting "Thrill The World" for germany. It came to my mind that we are ... well "we are" is pretty general, but fans that became fans at least in 2008.. we are the last "generation" that will love Michael that much. I can't imagine that there will be fans in 20 years that share the same love - it's just whole different thing. That's why I should take back 2008 and replace it with 2003/04/05.. because being a fan during that time was love... we showed our support - by sending messages, defending him against TV, reporters, strangers, friends and even family, with praying and showing him support on the ground. I hope you know what I mean. This stuff which really let us grow together - as fans and/ or with Michael.
Well, I don't know how the future looks like. Maybe future fan generation will have to face something "similar", like defending his image. No one can tell....

I just needed to talk about that, because yesterday it was so obvious with the younger fans I talked to, that they didn't feel the same "love" like I/we do... but maybe another.

Just a thought...

http://mj-revival.de/

MJ-Revival is a birthday party which takes place in several citys in germany (f.e. Berlin, Hamburg, Munich).

Please spread the word if you are from germany, or maybe live near germany.

http://mj-revival.de/

Thank you!

How I became a MJ fan / my whole fan story :)

The first time I saw Michael was around 1989. My family and I wanted to watch "The little Mermaid" but before it started there was Disney commercial including "Captain EO". I was impressed. It didn't take long and I saw "Moonwalker" and I try to imitate Michaels singing and dancing. By the way, i'm german and I had no idea that he was singing "I'm bad", so I kept singing "oooh baaaa". During the "Dangerous" Era I saw Michael live on stage - on TV (unfortunalty) - and I couldn't believe my eyes. It was magic to me when Michael moonwalked, when he was makin all kind of moves. I just thought it couldn't be real, there must be trick like a treadmill LOL. I don't remember too much of the time. I know, I recorded Michael songs on the radio because no one of my family wanted to buy a cassette or CD for me - I was 8 to that time - too young to buy one on my own LOL.And now the bad part comes which I don't want to keep quiet about. The first allegations. I believed in them and my family was no big help, because the believed in them too. I was little and the media won over me. When I became about 10 I was totally in a boygroup phase. But I started to like Michael again, but these 1993 "stuff" was in the back of my mind, so I dealt with my hormones and the boygroups LOL In 1997 I couldn't hold back anymore. I couldn't hide it anymore LOL And because of all this what happened - I bought my first MJ CDs just in that year - Blood on the dancefloor - HIStory in the Mix. I tried to visit Michaels concert, but I was unlucky, it was sold out and we had no chance to get tickets - such a shame ebay didn't exist then. We tried to meet Michael - but no luck. The concert in my town was so loud that I sat on the windowsill and listen to it, listen to Mike. I wasn't allowed to go there without a ticket from my mother, guess she was too scared that I get lost there. Later that year I also became a Janet fan - more about that later ;) In 2000 I created my own Yahoo! Club (later Groups) to meet other Michael Fans. http://launch.groups.yahoo.com/group/michaeljacksonforever/ That was the time I began to be active but due to my laziness in writing I stop now and then. I spend time on different message boards, mostly german, but due to this laziness I missed it when they relaunched a site and my nick was deleted after a time or I forgot my nick and/or password. So - if you ever came across FunkeyGurl/FunkeyJay/FunkyJ (725)/JennyA/Jenny4489, etc. that was ME :) Anyway, due to my shyness I never even thought about travelling abroad to see Michael. Even when he came to Berlin in 2002 I was too afraid to get lost. Instead I spent these days in front of the TV and PC and being in Berlin with all of my heart and soul. I still remember the "Living with Michael Jackson" days, I was so excited but after seeing the response of all people I began to be worried - Not about Mike - NO! About what the media and the people were saying and thinking. What was so wrong about it? Why didn't they see what a beautiful human being he was? I recently read in my diary that to this time I sent my first message to Michael, I don't remember what it was - maybe my letter I once wanted to send - You have to know there have been a lot of fan actions and I've send quite a few online messages to Michael. Then a nightmare happened again. You all know what I mean. I was shocked and didn't understand. When I think back I've found myself in denial about the 2nd allegations, ok, maybe not denial, wrong word - but takin a look at my old stuff shows me what a hard time it was for us fans. I know it was hard, but takin a look a everything showed me again how much we suffered. Every day we had to listen to dirty lies, it became worser and worser every day. TV interviews people from jail and that they would make him suffer. TV channels were already talking about Mike being in jail!!!! It was a hard time being a fan. Radio stations didn't play his songs, music channels didn't play his videos. As a fan you were the trash of society. I found myself praying for Michael and for his children. I wanted to go to L.A. so bad. I wanted to show support to Michael, I wanted to show him that I was there for me. When the trial was over, I felt free. I felt happy for Michael. And it became quiet. I needed to rest and I don't feel bad about it. It was a hard time. So I dealt with other music and had a little RocknRoll phase which was very important to me, because of that I became brave and independent. But that doesn't mean that I wasn't a fan anymore - how stupid to think that. In 2000 I wrote something like an oath, I swore to myself to always be a MJ/JJ fan. In 2008/2009 I heard the rumours about Michael giving concerts in London. Oh my god, can you believe how exciting that was to me?? Oh but before (in 2008)... gosh these rumours about Mike being sick. They drove me crazy, I tried to convince everyone that cared that it is fake, it is Mike playing with us. But back to London. When I heard that Mike was in London for the press conference I wanted to go there, with one leg I was in the air plane - but guess what I thought? I'd rather spend all my money on the tickets. I wanted to attend as many as I could. When I bought the first 4 tickets on the pre-sale I was so lucky and had very good seats - that's why I thought it would be better to not travel to the press conference. Later I bought 2 other tickets. I was so happy, it was driving me crazy - in the positive sense of course. I counted the days down, I was just thinking about Michael - which was actually bad because my finals were about to take place LOL. I even told my mum, when I have seen Michael I can die because there won't be anything in this world I need to see afterwards....

Denial...

Thinking about Michael makes me feel good, makes me forget what happened.
Listening to his music makes me wanna dance and sing, makes me forget what happened.

I better live in denial, because thinking about what happened, thinking about that Mike is not here anymore, makes me feel so sad, torns my heart into pieces, makes me wanna cry, makes me kind of depressed, makes me feel empty. The world feels empty.

So, I better live in denial...

The world is empty...

And I guess it's because of the fact that I start to realise what happened...
I was in denial the whole time and I know that. It was okay with me, it was a way of living.
Since yesterday... I don't know... it made me realise. It was no joke, no hoax, no hope is left. The end was there and we witnessed it. Michael is really gone and it breaks my heart to write that.

Sometimes I think the future generations are lucky to not feel this pain, our pain - not the familys pain (because we can't compare) - but the 'fan-pain', because for them it will be 'normal' to not having him there. They will grow up like that. Just like we know we can't see Elvis.
For example: I love Marilyn Monroe and Charlie Chaplin, but I know they are gone, it's ok, I'm not suffering, I'm fine with that. Of course sometimes I wish I could meet them, but I'm having this thought maybe once a year - because I'm used to that thought.
Future generations will feel the same way when it deals about Michael. But not only them, also kids that are 10 or under now - they will get used to it, because they are young. They won't remember much about these days in a few years.

But WE saw him, felt him, some meet him, listen to him, saw him live on TV, experienced eras... I never meet or saw him, my only good expierence was when we tried to meet him years ago or when the concert in my town was so loud that I sat at the window and listen to each and every word coming out of his mouth. And it's such a pain we suffer now. For almost every fan Michael wasn't/isn't a musician but a good friend, best friend or even family member. For me I can say that I'm suffering so much, like he has been a ver good friend or even a family member.

But we have to see, we can be lucky to live during his life time, even though of the pain, because WE are the ONLY one now that expierenced him. People will still be his fans in 100 years, but ONLY WE were there!

I love you Michael! Thank you for everthing!

Tweets that night and the day after Part 2

Next day

Tweets that night and the day after Part 1

"Back in the days" I just had one account on twitter "FunkeyGurl"

When I heard the news I was twittering on this account.

It breaks my heart to see them, but I want my soul/ heart to heal and offer it to the world to see

The Day After June, 25th 2009

That's what I wrote on my YouTube accounts

Thank you for inspiring me
Thank you for making me smile
Thank you for making me happy
Thank you for making me scream because of joy
Thank you for filling my childhood with awesome music
Thank you for amazing lyrics
Thank you for being a great person to ANYONE
Thank you for teachin me to never give up
Thank you for showing me how to continue fighting
Thank you for awaken my creative side
Thank you for making my eyes sparkling

Thank you Michael for everything you have ever given to me!!
I love you, my angel!
-written on 26th June 09

Even though the pain and heartache seems to follow me wherever I go...

I thought starting to write a blog might help my soul to heal.

I'll never be able to say goodbye to Michael. Maybe a "see you".
It's just that I can't accept what happened. It's so hard to realize. It was too unexpected. I was about to see him, to have my biggest dream come true and then a short message destroyed everything.

Today is going to be another hard day - it's the end actually. And it torns my heart into pieces and I don't want to believe it, find myself in denial.

Michael, I love you so much! I'm missing you like hell!