Distraction

I'm thankful that distractions find their way to me quite often the past days.

I'm not even asking for it, instead I keep thinking what I have done last year to the exact time, how I felt, how 'it' felt - and this feeling comes over me again - this strange feeling full with sadness, lonliness and emptiness. This thought of reminding me what happened, the thought that over 365 days have passed.

But without asking for it, I faced so much distraction since 06/25 that my thoughts are torn apart and can't concentrate on one subject. I'm actually thankful for all this madness I currently faced. I could slap someone's face for trying to set me up with someone, but on the other hand, I'm thankful that I got so mad, that it distracted me for a bit. And all the other little things, that keep popping up. Like an unexpected phone call when I was down which then got me in tears because of laughter.

I'm thankful for that.